For Alexandros.
You have no idea,
what you have sparked within me.
I am still skeptical that
I will be able to fully transmit it.
My heart feels so swollen.
Like a cotton ball that absorbs water,
taking 3 or 4 times it’s original size.
My heart is dripping,
it鈥檚 huge, gigantic and leaking,
a deep, heavy and oily liquid
within me.
One, that feels like an ocean among my cells.
The waves violently crushing my confidence.
I want to protect my velvety interiors,
but it ‘s too late.
Everything is soaking wet.
The more I resist it,
the more water I get.
I will drown.
My expanded heart,
doesn鈥檛 listen to reason.
Like a mindless sponge,
it spreads out ignoring our division.
It doesn鈥檛 understand you are
practically a stranger.
It doesn鈥檛 understand you might
mean actual danger.
It doesn鈥檛 understand
you might have left forever.
It dances and dances
to the beat of your answers.
It beats and beats
to the thoughts of that kiss.
I try to focus on my things.
The office needs this,
My cat’s breath stinks,
I have an appointment at six.
But what a wonderful kiss.
So timely. So sweet.
So curious and quick.
You were so confident,
you reached in a way
I had to meet you half there.
I hate that I was such a safe bet.
But you have changed me,
like a candle that lights
every other candle within reach.
I felt so inspired, so strong.
I felt love moving over in a closed circuit through my bones.
You don鈥檛 know about my attempted revenge,
but that put me down my path again.
I will always be grateful to you.
I hope in time you discover
you are to spark others
with your musical numbers
just like you did to me,
your humble admirer and distant lover.
Your presence and existence,
is a beautiful resistance,
your heritage shall not be forgotten.
You are meant to have it spoken.
I beg you, never to quit,
even if you and I split…
I believe you are to inspire others
the way that you inspired me.